When You're In My Dreams It's No Longer A Dream, It's A Freakin' Nightmare!

Why are you constantly haunting my dreams? Why are you so hard to get out of my head. You're just like a drug, I'm so addicted. It's not like I choose to think about you, I just cant help myself. I wish I had a way to erase you from my memory. I wish I could go back in time and change everything. Things didn't go the way I planned. You acted so strange, weren't acting yourself. And now you're forever haunting my dreams. Forget you? If I could I would, believe me. But that doesn't seem like an option. So until then I'm hooked, praying to get out. Praying to put an end to the madness that you've brought into my life.

Significance of 12:34

For several years now I find myself looking at a clock at the exact time of 12:34. Either AM or PM. And not just wall clocks, but computer clocks, cell phone, ipod, car clock, stove, microwave as well. It's a really random action for me to look at a clock at this exact moment. It's not like I look at the clock 20 minutes or so before this time so I make sure I see it at that exact moment, it just happens. This is so odd to me because the numbers are in order 1,2,3,4. I cant figure out if there is a reason I always see this time. Does this happen to you as well? I have had many psychic things happen to me before, I promise I'm not a loony, psychic things really do happen to me. I can recall one time the word fibromyalgia appeared in my head. Seriously who thinks of a word like that at random? Then 2 seconds later a commercial for lyrica (a fibromyalgia medication) came on TV talking about how to cure this condition. There have been many other things like this happen to me, but that's for another time. The point is why am I seeing 12:34 all the time? Is there an explanation or am I just crazy? Id rather there be an explanation. Please leave comments, I need some feedback!

Why Waste Time Being Anything But Kind?

"Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle"

This quote has made my mind go in to serious over-drive. I've sat here and pondered over it for a good while now. I know I haven't been as nice as I should be to certain people. I'm not a completely mean person, just some people aggravate me a tad bit. But after reading this quote I've realized that being rude or mean to others is pointless. It doesn't even make you feel good, and if it does its only a temporary feeling. And in the end you wind up feeling guilty.

So here is something to think about: You may feel like you want to lash out at someone, but you never know what kind of hardship that person may be facing at the time. Wouldn't you feel absolutely terrible if you were rude to a person and the next day they pass away? I would assume you would feel horrible. So this isn't just something for you to think about, it's something that you could put into action. Even if you're not having a good day, making someone else feel better just might brighten your day instead of bring yourself down even more by hurting some one's feelings. Learn to love others even if they are slightly unbearable. (:

Family Feud At Peace

There has always been tension in my immediate family. Between me and my step-mom and between me and my dad. This past Thanksgiving all of my family got together at my grandmothers. I feel like the veil of tension that was place among my family has been lifted. I feel as if there has been closure and we are finally at peace with each other. I know that everything happens for a reason and I feel that the issues between all of us wouldn't have been resolved if certain things hadn't happened. Let's just say I was extremely thankful this past Thanksgiving! (:

Childhood Was Bliss

I love how when I was a little kid I believed that anything was possible! I believed that the Easter Bunny really did leave me all those little chocolates in my basket and that he did give me my first real bunny. I believed that we got things without having to use money, mostly because I didn't really know what money was. I believed that my parents could do anything that they wanted to. But I came to realize that you couldn't do/have everything that you wanted. Things come with consequences and you have to be careful. Things seem to be more difficult than what they were back then. A lot of things seem far out of reach and no matter how far you stretch out to get it, it's still unreachable. But I'm not going to give up that easily. I know exactly what I want and I wont stop until I get it.

Teen Romance Novels =

Setting myself up for extremely strange dreams. Dreams that I haven't been having for a long time. Therefore I believe these books I have been reading are to blame. Lately I haven't been reading as much as I would like to seeing as I used to read every single day, but I guess high school ruined that for me. English teachers in high school tend to make up a list of books that you HAVE to read if you have any hopes of passing their class. When I would read these books I wouldn't really be enjoying them, I wasn't really reading for fun anymore. Now don't get me wrong, some of these books weren't half bad, but I just felt like I was being forced to read them. So I stopped reading for fun for a while. And I just recently started up again and let me tell you, that's when the dreams started happening. The only books, for now, that I'm interested in are the fantasy/romance type books. Which would explain why I'm having fantasy's about romance? Sounds pretty lame, but I'm just telling it like it is. These dreams are nothing risque before you go assuming. They are just really far out there dreams that I don't really know why I'm having them. But hey, they keep me entertained!